I am turning my life around and I am 46. I have taken the first steps to move away from the IT industry and my golden handcuffs - both of which I loathe.
I have mended the relationship to my wife - and mending it with my kids. All of which I love. A single signature away from divorce was turned around into a fruitful partnership.
I have left the big city in favour of rural life. The air is clean. The world is silent. My mind is calmer.
It is hard. Financially, physically and emotionally. But chopping wood at 6AM in a snow clad landscape, while the sun is coming up, is bliss. I am healing.
I have no idea about what I'm doing. I have no education in agriculture, no handyman skills, no construction vocabulary, can't tell plants apart but I am happier. Nicer to the kids. Patient. Bring my wife flowers. Chat with the neighbours who think I'm a freak. Laugh at myself. It's good.
It is not too late my friend. There are plenty of women. Many of them have kids but no husbands. Some of the kids have no fathers. There is a need for you in this world. There are people who need your love. There are people you need to love.
And yes, like all the other comments, go see a therapist. You're vulnerable. What a perfect start you're off to.
Small steps my friend. Small steps. You've got this mate.
I am turning my life around and I am 46. I have taken the first steps to move away from the IT industry and my golden handcuffs - both of which I loathe.
I have mended the relationship to my wife - and mending it with my kids. All of which I love. A single signature away from divorce was turned around into a fruitful partnership.
I have left the big city in favour of rural life. The air is clean. The world is silent. My mind is calmer.
It is hard. Financially, physically and emotionally. But chopping wood at 6AM in a snow clad landscape, while the sun is coming up, is bliss. I am healing.
I have no idea about what I'm doing. I have no education in agriculture, no handyman skills, no construction vocabulary, can't tell plants apart but I am happier. Nicer to the kids. Patient. Bring my wife flowers. Chat with the neighbours who think I'm a freak. Laugh at myself. It's good.
It is not too late my friend. There are plenty of women. Many of them have kids but no husbands. Some of the kids have no fathers. There is a need for you in this world. There are people who need your love. There are people you need to love.
And yes, like all the other comments, go see a therapist. You're vulnerable. What a perfect start you're off to.
Small steps my friend. Small steps. You've got this mate.