> Small doses of desoxyn (meth) help a lot (and nothing else helps) but you can't get it legally outside the US.
Be very careful with this. I've been in the same boat but it's not one you can ride forever, the older you get the bigger the physical toll this is gonna take on your body.
Consider looking for an alternative that isn't as "hard", cannabis can be that once you found a good strain for you (Sativa weighted hybrids) and a reliable supplier for it.
Sadly that's pretty much impossible if you ain't living in a place where it's legalized. Illegal drug suppliers are rarely known for the consistency of their products.
Don't worry. I know how to do it the proper way an don't do it anyway.
I've once gotten 2 grams of pure crystals rather than pills, done a lot of research (the "limitless" movie inspires to invest in such a research first, reddit and quora are great places to start), experimented a lot (with practices and supplements to take to protect the body from the bad things it does and mitigate tolerance growth) and came to the point when I could marathon for a week without sleeping without even having hangover once I stop. The feelable negative results were (after I've found a proper way) almost none but over-concentration (narrowed mental view), disregulated blood sugar and butt ache caused by 22x7 concentrated working sitting on a chair. Nevertheless I stopped and don't use it and my actual working dose I used on some occasions (but the experiments) to concentrate for hours was almost homeopathic - 3 minuscule sand-like specks a day. I've even helped some addicts to quit gracefully.
As for weed (which isn't legal at my location either yet quite easy to get with little or no risk of prosecution - people use to smoke in the streets and cops walking by don't care) I've tried smoking it (in tiny doses, my body is very sensitive to all the substances) regularly for some time but didn't really like it and now I don't even know where to get it (as well as any other illegal substances, the dealers I knew have vanished over time as I was an extremely infrequent buyer and I don't bother to look for new). It made my mind a way less sharp, some strains made me sleepy, some strains made me crazy, the only thing the weed actually was great with for me was sex.
If you happen to know particularly good strain names I'd love to know too, however. I once met a guy who offered 9 different strains and I haven't bought any just because I didn't knew which I could like.
BTW the only thing other than meth that used to help was 1/4 pill of xanax (especially stacked with sunifiram). But it's almost impossible to get. I was lucky to get 4 pills once so I could take it 12 times and leave a pill for for a rainy day. I've also tried bromozepam but it doesn't do the job for me.
The thing is that the human body suffers just as much from wear and tear like anything else, and if you have ADHD then this can affect you even worse due to a proneness for repetitive physical behaviors due to stimming.
Crystal puts a lot of these behaviors into overdrive without you even noticing, regardless of how much you do to alleviate the side-effects, they will still take their toll.
I'm now in my mid 30's, and even tho I haven't done a lot of crystal in my life (probably 3 grams max, I never needed much because the effects were super strong even in tiny doses) I'm now at a point where even the smallest dose will give me troubles with my jaw bones and (otherwise healthy) teeth simply due to the wear and tear of the induced teeth gnawing, it's not something I can or want to do anymore.
For a cannabis alternative, you might want to take a look here [0]. Just be aware that even with a list like that, you will still need to experiment because these effects can vary greatly from individual to individual, so you need to figure out what works best for you.
A good addition to that is CBD oil orally taken when taking a tolerance break (every 3 weeks I take a 1-week break) and can also serve as a life-saver if you ever end up with some strain giving you anxiety/too much of a psychotic high.
As a general rule: Sativas are on the more active end, Indicas are usually the ones sending you to sleep, hybrids can be anything between them.
You might also want to consider a different method of application than smoking if those effects ain't doing it for you. Vaping is healthier and surfaces the effects differently, the same holds true for edibles. Canacaps are not that difficult to prepare, it's just cannabis infused oil put in capsules, but can be very effective (long duration) and you can use them without everybody around you instantly smelling it.
Tho, always be careful with edible dosing, even experienced "stoners" regularly underestimate the potency of edibles.
Take care and I hope there's something useful here that will help you find a more natural remedy to keep you productive and healthy.
Be very careful with this. I've been in the same boat but it's not one you can ride forever, the older you get the bigger the physical toll this is gonna take on your body.
Consider looking for an alternative that isn't as "hard", cannabis can be that once you found a good strain for you (Sativa weighted hybrids) and a reliable supplier for it.
Sadly that's pretty much impossible if you ain't living in a place where it's legalized. Illegal drug suppliers are rarely known for the consistency of their products.